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laptop is back

2006-10-23T01:25:00.000-04:00

my laptop is bak! ya-y. if u havent known, my laptop crashed twice. first, i just had to reformat my hard drive,lose all my data, and reinstall windows. but a few days later after that, my hard drive it self crashed. so i waited for a while cuz i nevr had the time to buy a new hard drive and get it installed, considering the closest place is in roanoke, about 40 minute drive from virginia tech. but yea, thanx to mike, i was able to get it fixed. now its time to do stuff that i missed a lot. like downlod all my music, videos, and more. i also need to buy an external hard drive. ill do that for my next pay check. im not doing so bad with my money now that im getting paid atleast 200 dollars each pay period.

on the other note, my studio professor is going to chicago fora month. its been a hectic week, but i managed through it. all nighters and working for a long time spending so much quality time in studio. haha. now we have all of our ehibition stuff in the lobby and ready to go on monday. im going to b taking pictures for it. ill upload the pictures somewhere on the internet sooner or later when im bored out of my mind. but till then, keep coming bak.

on another note, one of my favorite band, porno graffitti's new song is out! weeee time to download that soon. i also need to get something to copy my music from my ipod to my hard drive cuz evrything is gone. new internal hard drive. so, b4 donwloading stuff, i need to reinstall all the crap that i need such as adobe creative suites, autocad, archicad, rhino, etc. ill do that tomorrow.

song of the day:
ポルノグラフィティ『winding road』
Porno Graffitti - winding road

anniversaries

2006-10-05T19:54:00.000-04:00

yea... i should be studying or working on studio work or translating, but watever. im bored.

so yea, yesterday was sisi and I's half year anniversary! ya-y! who would have thought. when i first asked her out, i wouldnt have guessed it would last this long. I love her so much.

anyway, it was also my roommate's (jason's) 21st birthday. lol. also, i heard about ashly's big surprise which is her dream come true, on 1am-ish on the 4th. hahaha. so many things going on.

so yea, we went to kabuki's, a japanese hibachi restaurant in christiansburg to celebrate, mostly for jason's birthday. he drank sake, and got a free drink from the manager guy. we ate a lot and i was content. i think he'll be drunk all weekend, but watever. if he doesnt puke all over the carpet in our room, itll be fine.

but yea, bak to me and sisi. i hope i could be with her for long long long time. i love her a lot. more than the time i asked her out. she's the best thing that has happened to me in my life.

song of the day:
base ball bear - electric summer

struggle

2006-09-29T23:33:00.000-04:00

so, i havent written much here in awhile. ive been busy with college. lots of studio works and projects and homeworks, which im doing right now. but iim taking a break.

life sux.

thats all i wanted to say. i finally realized how much things i have regretted in my life. if i ever was able to do things over again, i will. if the things right now r going to happen for a long period of time, i dunno how ill b able to take evrything. i dunno how long i can take this. i want to start my life over again if i had the chance...

to start my life over again. thats all i wish right now... i suck... i want to change that... but i guess i cant. i have to live the way i am right now. theres no way i can possibly change it. ive already changed my way of living so many times that i dont see any other good way to change. wat can i do?

life really does suck.

i suck...

at making decisions...
at caring for people...
at managing things...
at everything...

at life...

Virginia Tech

2006-08-19T10:46:00.000-04:00

ive been back at blacksburg, virginia for quite a while now. it just happened to me that ive been lazy in writing a blog cuz i was having a lot of fun. unpacking was not great at all but stuff after that was fun. different from freshmen year when i didnt kno anyone, considering that no one from my high school comes here. but because it was my second year, i had more friends and knew around campus so there was stuff to do. im trying to enjoy before classes start but also psyched about classes at the same time. weird isnt it. well, im gonna do something else other than writing a blog now.

song of the day:
rie fu - life is like a boat

GO!

2006-08-14T15:44:00.000-04:00

im so ready to go back to tech! pretty much packed everything and ready to go. just need to finish all my laundry and load it in the car. im leaving tomorrow night so i can get to blacksburg at around 8am on the 16th. this year is going to be busy once again with all my classes and work at deet's place. my schedule goes like this:

ARCH 2015 Architecture II - Lecture (2:00PM - 3:15PM TR)
ARCH 2015 Architecture II - Studio (1:00PM - 4:50PM MWF)
ARCH 3115 History of Architecture (9:30AM - 10:45AM TR)
ESM 3704 Basic Principles of Structures (9:05AM - 9:55AM MWF)
UAP 1024 Urban Public Issues (10:10AM - 11:00AM MWF)

Work (Tuesday 11:00PM - 1:30AM)
Work (Wednesday 5:30PM - 9:00PM)
Work (Thursday 8:30PM - 11PM)
Work (Saturday B 12:00PM - 4:30PM)

other than that, i have kendo practice on monday and wednesday from 10:00PM - 12:00AM and saturday from 6:00PM - 8:00PM at the earliest. Also, ill b going to JCA more often than last year which probably is on a friday. sooo much stuff to do. weekends and some weekdays will also be put into my architecture studio time trying to work on projects, but thats wat my major is all about. dont even kno how i havent shot myself last year from working at deets and studio at the same time. itll b hectic but ill manage it. hopefully...

im just happy to see my friends at tech again. parties, fun socials, etc. thats wat its all about. also, i cant forget about sisi! i get to see her again! cant wait! i love her sooo much! XD

流れてく時のスピードに負けないように　立ち止まってしまわぬように
まだ出口まではほど遠い　闇のトンネル　駆け抜ける
踏み出す一歩が力を　生み出すから迷わないで
走り出せ明日へと　明日へと

(the exit is still far away, we run through the dark tunnel not looking back, not stopping, not to lose against the speed of time elapsing. each one step brings power so dont hesitate. start running towards tomorrow... to tomorrow)

sorry for the crappy translationg again. hahahahaha. i kno that most of u have no idea wat the song is saying so atleast im trying to give u the gist of wat the song is saying. these days, ive been listening to the lyrics more often than listening to how the song sounds like. eh. mayb im getting old. lol. just kidding. i kno wat ur going to say...

song of the day:
MEGARYU - day by day

home sweet home

2006-08-02T19:04:00.000-04:00

Im bak from the 3 weeks or so time in japan. lots of things happened, which were both fun and stressful. the whole three weeks as some of you may kno is for my church/religion, so it really wasnt for a vacation, like go where ever you want, whenever you want.

well here's the gist of my time in japan. the first 3, 4 days there, i went to a thing called Tenri Forum 2006. its the first symposium thing we had that involves english speaking followers. first day was harsh but it wasn't that bad. hearing lectures from different reverends and speakers throughout the world in english is something u dont see very often. basically, the topic was about my religion, Tenrikyo, and specific parts about it.

after that, i went to this thing called "international hinokishin corps". it was hosted by the Tenrikyo Young Men's Association (TYMA). many TYMA members throughout the world gathered to attend, ranging from Taiwan, Korea, Brasil, Hawaii, and America/Mainland. there we worked hard helping out people by doing clean up works, building stuff, etc. the most memorable one is at "jyatani mountain" where we carried and pulled logs/trees up the hill. so tiring. had a good work out during that time. also, i experienced my first time as a translator. not a simultaneous translator, as in translating wat the person sed on the spot, but a translator where you speak through a mic and transmit it to a receiver. i read it off the paper some other person translated, but it was hard. i had to hear the japanese in order to follow where in the speech he was at. it was fun tho.

that whole internation hinokishin corps ended in a week. after that, i went to kaigai shonen hinokishin corps. there, i was a counselor taking care of kids from 11-15/16 year olds. obviously, this was so hard. i stressed out soooo much. damn kids wont listen and had so many things to do. constantly was running aroung and trying to organize the kids into their respective groups. even the 15 year olds acted so immature. asking where they put their shoes, wat happened to their laundry, they lost their uniform - where could they find it, etc. etc. etc. why can't they take care of themselves? parents these days need to really discipline their kids a lot more and not spoil them. they need to do things by themselves for once. other than taking care of the kids, i was also a translator. I translated greetings, speeches, and things simultaneously out of my head. it was a good experience, something different. no rest running around and going to counselors meeting was hard. meeting always ended near midnight, and had to wake up around 530 and woke up at 4 once.

drinking with the other counselors were fun too towards the end. the head guy insisted on evryone to drink and he made lots of funny comments. the only english he knew was, "nice to meet you" and used it throughout the whole one week. i heard he used that phrase last year too. but to an extent where he sed it during the closing ceremony and disbanding time. so, we taught him some new english phrase: "wasaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabi" hahaha. he will definately remember that. lol. i got to kno lots of the other counselors from brasil, taiwan, and korea. it was cool even tho they were around 4+ years older than me. age doesnt matter if we have fun together.

well after all that ended, i walked around and went to places to buy gifts for everyone. that was really hectic. visited ppl at karaoke sometimes but didnt really do much after that.

the plane ride... now that's a totally different story. the stupid flight was around 3 hours delayed. i was on the plane and ready to take off. however, the pilot sed the airport in seattle's something is malfunctioning so they cant take off. the airport in seattle was a emergency landing place just in case anything happens. it took time for them to fix it. as a matter fact, i dunno if they fixed it or not because we took a different route bak. changing the course of the trip also took an hour or so to decide. eventually we went towards hawaii, which i think was our new emergency landing place, and went bak up towards north dakota and went to new york. oy, i was supposed to get to JFK/New York around 1140am scheduled time but arrives there around 250pm ish... so i got bak home around 5 cuz the luggage was slow. o well, atleast im safely bak home.

safely bak home so i can see my lovely girl soon. missed her dearly. i love you soooo much XD

****EDIT*** I've noticed that i hate travelling with my parents. especially my mom. she's so self-centered, i hate it. she treats me like im still 5. i cant do watever i want to. she drags me to places without my own will and she thinks i like it... i hate this life. im going to move out as soon as possible after i pay off all my debts from college.

song of the day:
湘南乃風 feat. Moomin 『応援歌』
shounanno kaze feat. Moomin - ouenka

here i go-

2006-07-11T23:13:00.000-04:00

japan here i come
going to b there from 7/12 to 8/2
im going to miss talking to u sisi
but ill c u soon when i come bak XD
im not going to enjoy the plane ride ><"
(.-.) (._.) (.-.) (._.) (.-.) (x_x)

personality

2006-07-10T16:01:00.000-04:00

here's a personality test i took, which i got from sisi. here it is:

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	56%
Stability	66%
Orderliness	56%
Accommodation	70%
Interdependence	70%
Intellectual	56%
Mystical	50%
Artistic	70%
Religious	70%
Hedonism	50%
Materialism	50%
Narcissism	56%
Adventurousness	56%
Work ethic	56%
Self absorbed	43%
Conflict seeking	56%
Need to dominate	36%

Romantic	63%
Avoidant	36%
Anti-authority	36%
Wealth	23%
Dependency	50%
Change averse	36%
Cautiousness	50%
Individuality	56%
Sexuality	83%
Peter pan complex	36%
Physical security	50%
Physical Fitness	44%
Histrionic	30%
Paranoia	36%
Vanity	36%
Hypersensitivity	63%
Female cliche	30%

Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
rarely irritated, positive, tough, non phobic, fearless, likes the unknown, self reliant, high self control, confident, trusting, strong instincts, prudent, optimistic, willful, likes parties, prefers a specialized career, takes charge, altruistic, strong, high self concept, adventurous, practical, thoughtful

beach

2006-07-08T19:57:00.000-04:00

so this past couple of days was probably the most relaxing, stress relieving part of this year's summer so far. due to several stuff going on in my life, stress is piling up sooooo much. evrytime i wake up, i have atleast 2 or 3 strands of hair on my pillow... thats not healthy at all.

well anyway, i went to long beach island, where christie has a beach house over there and she's there for like a month or so. anyway, i first wasnt gonna go because I've been really stressing out and tired with things. i just needed time to relax at home. but thinking back, home is not a great place to be. sisi was there at the beach house too. i guess the reason why i went is that i really wanted to see her. i couldnt say no to her request of me going there. but i dont regret going because i had a great time.

im going to skip all the details cuz im lazy to write right now. but one thing for sure is that it was relaxing and i had lots of fun. i miss all my tech friends right now. a little more than a month before we go bak. a little more than a month to see sisi again. i love her even more again XD

im kinda gonna go on a 湘南乃風(shounanno kaze) rampage with the music for a while. their songs r great, especially the lyrics:

あの空へ　あの空で　負けんじゃねえ　泣くんじゃねえ　俺が俺であるため
(to that sky, in that sky, dont lose, dont cry, to be myself)
自分の空へ　自由の側へ　飛べ最後に笑えるように
(to my sky, next to freedom, fly so u can laugh in the end)

数多くの自由を願い　数多くの不自由と闘い　家族と親友と共に
(wished for numerous freedom, faught numerous discomfort, with family and friends)
遠くの何かを狙い　届くと信じてやまない
(aimed for that something in the distance, thinking it will get there)
不器用なロケット花火のように　がむしゃらに飛べ　真っすぐに
(like a clumsy rocket fireworks, fly recklessly, straight-forward)

P.S. i suck at translating... even though i found out today i would have to b doing it in japan... a simultaneous translation... just hear the japanese and translate it at that spot... its going to suck. well atleast it will b a good experience, i guess

song of the day:
湘南乃風『晴伝説』
shounanno kaze - haredensetsu

independence day

2006-07-04T15:08:00.000-04:00

its fourth of july, its independence day and....
its our 3 month anniversary XD
and i get to see her soon
o i love her so much XD
cant wait!!!

the end

2006-06-30T21:46:00.000-04:00

finally, the 70th spiritual development course in Los Angeles ends. im soooo tired. but i guess not that tired cuz we all went to Hollywood afterwards. lol. it was ok. i got really tired. i slept on the way bak and jeff took a picture i really dont like.... i had my eyes kinda half open ><" i guess thats y my eye hurts right now... so dry... i dont want anyone to see that picture. i nevr do that too... dammit.... watevr.

**EDIT
im really sorry sisi for being an ass today. i dont think u'll b reading this blog for a while but i just wanted to apologize to u. u might not think i was being an ass but in my mind after finish talking to u, i thought i was. i guess i was jealous for both u and christie were having fun. i tried to stop talking to u by saying u two are having lots of fun and u two should just talk to each other. i thought i was disturbing u two from having fun... sorry. i was just wishing that i was there... also not being able to be with u when ur having fun... im really sorry sisi... i still love you...

song of the day:
LOW IQ 01 - swear

Can I...

2006-06-28T18:50:00.000-04:00

the next time i see you wat can i do...

can i hold u tight?
can i kiss u?
can i b with u all the time?
can i see u everyday?
can i spend all day with u?
can i laugh and play?

can i express my feeling to u?
that my feeling is different
different from wat i have towards others
the feeling that i only have towards u

whatever it is that i can be able do,
the only thing on my mind is u
the only reason that i can give to the actions i take
is that i love you...

ill b here for u...
only u...
because i love you and u love me
nothing will stop us
if we have each other we r unstoppable

i miss you...
i dont think i can take being alone
only one day not seeing you seems like waiting a lifetime
i want to see you now
its like im going crazy, crazy about u
im not ashamed about being crazy
being crazy about u is the best thing that has ever happened

i love you from the bottom of my heart

Song of the day:
Aerosmith - I Don't Want to Miss a Thing

Lyrics:
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

free time

2006-06-27T19:39:00.000-04:00

wow 2 hours of free time after the service performance practice
teodori, "hand dance" was not bad
im now able to adjust and sing
to the high tone of the fue/bamboo flute now
but right now, i cant sing
im tired and my throat hurts
im bored right now too
mayb i shouldve slept my 2 hours of free time
o well... watevr too late now

i love u...
u kno who XD

Close, but not Really...

2006-06-25T22:44:00.000-04:00

The time being in Los Angeles is almost over
but after that, ill go to Japan a week later
i guess the only thing ill b doing
will be to go to sleep and go online
i want to see sisi but i think ill die
from all this not sleeping thing for a month
and the not sleeping thing starts again
as soon as i go to Japan
she'll b in NJ and ill b in CT again
but i cant see her....
so close that i can almost reach
but something is blocking the way
i need to wait a little longer
the wait will be worth it tho so im not worried

when i go back, ill write more and put more songs on...

"City of Angels"

2006-06-04T22:22:00.000-04:00

Right now, like i said in the last blog, im in Los Angeles for one month for a spiritual development course for my religion called Tenrikyo. As some of u may not kno or heard of Tenrikyo, i guess i could explain it to u. Tenrikyo's foundress is Miki Nakayama or also known as Oyasama. God the Parent received Miki as the Shrine of God in 1838 and started spreading the teachings of tenrikyo. Our goal in the religion is to achieve the joyous life, in other words, for everyone to b living happily together like a family, peace and trusting others. Sins as christianity states, we use the term mental dust. when these dusts accumulate, many sickness occurs and through hinokishin (work helping others to say thanks for our healthy body) and/or prayer, we sweep the dust away. so i guess thats the basic and if u want to kno more, u can ask me. hahahaha.

so, my schedule for this whole one month period until june 30th is wake up at 5am then have classes until 8pm. thats the whole day. classes include practice of the prayer service, lectures about the teachings, lectures, lectures, lectures, etc. so basically its a school and learning but its not bad. well, im not going to write how each and evrything that i felt very important YET, but i will soon enough. mayb after i come bak. but i think after i finish this course, it will change the way of how i look at my life in many ways. not many students ths year but ive learned many things through personal experiences from some people in this course. i believe i can use their example and make a better self. i need to b better in many ways; spiritually, toward others, toward my family, and towards God. i think this will b a great experience. see me change next time u see me.... hopefully.

song of the day:
Hi-Timez 『in my words～言葉にできない～』
Hi-Timez - in my words ~kotobani dekinai~

spiritual development

2006-06-04T00:01:00.000-04:00

dont really have much time to write anything here right now because im in LA for the spiritual development course for my religion (Tenrikyo). it's going ok right now, its only been 3 days so far. the whole course is supposed to be for one month. wish me luck XD. so through this 3 days so far, i've learned so many things, mostly about my religion, which i think im pretty religious among all my other friends that are catholic, christian, muslim, or watevr.

the most important thing i learned is the word trust. how i wrote in the past blog about trust, i didnt really think as much as i have right now. ill write a lot of stuff when i come bak or have moe free time but i would just like to say, trust is an important aspect and a keyword to the teachings.

i miss evryone

love

2006-05-30T17:47:00.000-04:00

Through the years of my life, i've always thought to myself what love is. How love can be described in multiple ways. Love isn't all just about a girlfriend, or a boyfriend if ur a girl, but also love towards your family, friends, animals, and anything else. How love was so complicated that I would never understand the true meaning of love. But as I grew up, i think I got to kno the true meaning of love little by little with help from people, like my family, teachers, friends, and a special someone. Through the rest of my lifetime, i would like to cherish that "love" i've acquired and learn from my mistakes.

That said, i want to apologize to sisi, for not going to b able to go to the beach with her. she was really excited about it and wanted to see me. i wanted to see her too, but in reality, its hard. this summer is going to b really busy for me. evryone might b thinking, "wow osamu, u must b happy ur going to LA and japan for the summer. ur going to have so much fun!" in reality, i will have fun, but this whole vacation thing that u all may think, isnt really a vacation. it's about my religion/church thing. i'll b learning and attending lectures/symposiums, working to help others/volunteer works, etc. basically, its like religion school, learning evrything in greater detail though. this is the wat i chose and im not going to regret it. although, i regret that i wont b able to spend anytime in the summer with sisi. im really sorry... u shouldn't b sorry about wat u sed to me last night cuz i deserved it. i got ur hopes high and i wont b able to make it come true. but i will definately make something come true... to be with u for a long time and to be with u a lot next semester.

well, the song of the day is by deen again, but this time, it is their debut song. deen sings mostly all ballads. the lyrics r all soooo good. here r some parts:

いつまでも抱きしめあいたい
(want to hold you forever)
永遠に戻ることのない　時の中で
(where time never goes back)

このまま君だけを　奪い去りたい
(i want to take u away as it is right now)
やがて朝の光　訪れる前に
(before the morning light comes)
そしてまたあの日見た夢を叶えよう
(then again let's make the dream we saw that day come true)
二人素直なままの瞳で
(with the honest eyes of us two)

いつまでも信じていたいよ
(i want to believe you forever)
心震えるほど
(as much as my heart shakes)
愛しいから
(because you are my beloved)

song of the day:
DEEN 『このまま君だけを奪い去りたい』
DEEN - konomama kimidakewo ubaisaritai

walk to remember

2006-05-29T22:21:00.000-04:00

today we did the 13mile walk with my church
a walk from manhattan to flushing, New York
the purpose of this walk involves my religion
where the foundress sent her daughter to spread the teachings
she walked up the mountain and to the next place
we try to walk to see how much effort she put in to spread the teachings
pretty cool i must say
well besides that, i took pictures of buildings while walking
we also saw a recording of the movie spiderman
i wasnt that tired but i got a tan all ovr my face and arm
but its not that bad, no sunburn
after we completed the walk, we had barbeque
good food... ribs, sausage, hamburger, chicken
mmmmmm..... hahahahaha

i love you sisi~! XD

song of the day:
ECHOES - ZOO

a pretty old song... i think 1989 ish
the lyrics have lots of names of animals
that's y the title is "zoo"

garage sale

2006-05-28T18:41:00.000-04:00

so today was garage sale at the church
today was really hot, i think i got a tan a little
it was fun tho selling stuff
i think they sed we sold around 3300 dollars
not bad... but i think we sold some stuff too cheap
well we did have to give away as much as possible

o yea, guess wat sisi
i found a panda badge, lol
ill take a picture of it and post it here
or show it to u some other time XD

im so tired... im about to go to sleep anytime soon
didnt really get sleep last night
and tomorrow is gonna b the thirteen mile walk
gotta wake up early for that too...
this summer im gonna b doing lots and lots of stuff involving church

the song of the day's lyrics r really good, i like it
this song is pretty old but still awesome
here r some parts of my favorite:

サヨナラバスは君を乗せて静かに走り出す
(the goodbye bus starts to move quietly with you on)
手を振る君が少しずつ　遠くへ行ってします
(the image of u waving goodbye starts to go into the distance)
経ちつくす街並み一人ぼっちには慣れてるのに
(in the city ive been used to be lonely)
どうして泪が止まらないんだろう
(but why cant i stop crying)

サヨナラ　サヨナラ　また笑って話せるその日まで
(goodbye goodbye 'til the next time we can talk in laughter)
僕は僕らしくいるから
(i will be myself 'til then)

song of the day:
ゆず　『サヨナラバス』
yuzu - sayonara bus

stamina

2006-05-27T20:55:00.000-04:00

i've though to myself again
i have no more stamina
that whole one month thing
not a good idea
and this whole summer
ill have less stamina
what am i going to do?
on the other note
shidogakuin CT students r getting young
and getting very good
especially little kids
one year ago they were slacking
missing men and kote
now, they do great kikentaichi
im realyl surprised
i think shidogakuin CT is gonna b good
my years there it was fine
but when i left
evryone left at the same time
some people nevr came bak
some people went bak to japan
but atleast the little ones r all grown
and doing well
i wonder how they will b next summer

im getting old
should i retire? LOL
well mayb not for another 4 years...
i need to help the Virginia Tech Kendo
my friend told me to find one good guy with potential
and make that guy strong
so he can carry on the tradition
ill keep my eye open on it

song of the day:
DEPAPEPE - summer parade

dreams come true

2006-05-26T17:35:00.000-04:00

in the mind of a human, images r drawn
an image illustrated so realistically that it feels like ur there
a feeling that u r actually living there
where reality is a dream, and dream is reality
there r times when u dont want to wake up
the most cherished memory or fantasy makes up a dream
a dream is where ur true self is reflected
ur greed, ur fantasy, ur needs r reflected
a dream is a place where u can hide from reality
making ur dream self a scapegoat from reality
i want a scapegoat to be in my dreams forever
to be out of this miserable reality
dreams do come true though
with effort and correct decisions anything is possible

my dream last night is going to come true tho
im 100 percent sure
if my feelings and "her" feelings r true
and always thinking about each other
it will come true
being with her all the time
being beside her, just the two of us
hugging her tight is all i want
i miss her so much right now
i wished that dream was reality
have the dream become reality and reality become a dream
i miss you...

here's a quiz that i took. i found it while looking at sisi's old blogs XD i was really bored >< what can i do? btw most of this is true. im very surprised.

June,
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite andsoft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easilyhurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

song of the day:
misia + dreams come true - i miss you

i miss you sisi! i love you!

problems in society

2006-05-25T17:07:00.000-04:00

i was talking to sisi today about some movies i wanted to watch and movies i have watched in the past. the movie i want to watch right now is called 七人の弔(nananin no tomurai). its another movie that explains the problems in the japanese society once again. the plot of the story is that the seven families go on a camping trip to a place deep in the mountains. the kids feel awkward and weird because the parents r acting awfully nice to them. the real reason to the camping trip is to sell the kids' organs for money. the parents have sold their kids for their own greed. the kids get into danger but the parents wont help them cuz they get more money for themselves if the number of kids die. more money for an individual that they brought. this movie is so f'd up. the society in japan these days... loan and money problems can result in things like these. but more notibly other than this movie, suicide circle is one movie that you should never see... really REALLY disturbing. portrays the high suicide rate in japan. how children these days are changing. cant really explain. if u want to see it for urself, go for it, but i dont recommend it. after seeing these movies im definately gonna do my best not to turn into a parent like the ones portrayed in the movie >< if i do, that person should smack my face.

on a brighter note, i think ill start putting up good slow songs for the song of the day XD most of them r going to b some old songs from the 90s or even before that but some songs these days rnt that good (japanese songs). i liked the old slow songs the best XD. well but this song of the day is recent, came out in 2006. its japanese reggae. i love the lyrics. they sed they wrote it through personal experience. can't really believe it but its great. even if you dont understand the lyrics, the video is awesome XD ull definately like it. so touching. some of the lyrics from the song i like (actually, after writing this, ive noticed i LOVE evry part of the lyrics ><":

"なあ"　変なあだ名で呼ぶなよ　皆バカップルだと思うだろ
("hey," dont call me by my weird nickname, everyone might think we're stupid couples)
でもいつも落ち込んだとき
(but everytime i get depressed)
助けてくれる　お前の優しい声
(your soft, gentle voice saves me)

LOVE SONG　もう一人じゃ生きていけねえよ側に居て当たり前だと思ったんだ
(Love song, i can't live alone anymore, i think its natural to be near you)
LOVE SONG　もう悲しませたりしねえよ空に向け俺は誓ったんだ
(Love song, i promised to the sky that i'll never make you sad)
LOVE SONG　ヘタクソな歌で愛を　バカな男が愛を歌う一生隣で聴いててくれよ
(Love song, with this bad song, a stupid guy sings love, listen to it forever beside me)
LOVE SONG　何度でも何度でも
(Love song, always, everytime)

目を閉じれば　億千の星　一番光るお前が欲しいと
(if i close my eyes, there are billions of stars, i want you, the brightest of them all)
ギュッと抱きしめた夜はもう二度と忘れない　届け愛のうた
(the night i held you tight, ill never forget... hope you receive this love song)

awwwwww so touching isn't it ><. love this song. goes so well with the music video. before i end this blog, i want to say, "i love you, sisi~!" XD

song of the day:
湘南乃風　『純恋歌』
shounanno kaze - junrenka

kendo

2006-05-24T18:45:00.000-04:00

bak to shidogakuin CT for the summer practice of kendo
well actually only one more practice to go before i leave again ><"
im going to LA and japan soon, so yea
anyway, ive found out how much progress i didnt make
all the kids were so good and i wasnt
they had more stamina then i did
this means more practice at Tech so we get better
more and more harder practices to come XD
i think everyone should b ready for it
mayb just because i was a little sick
i couldnt breathe right but no excuses
im definately out of shape after that 1 month+ of
no kendo at all cuz i injured my heel
it felt fine today but its cuz the floor isnt hard
the floor at my dojo is "tatami"
or straw matt that japanese houses usually have
i wonder how my heel will b on hard floors ><
well ill b buying a heel pad just in case
we'll see wat happens XD

song of the day:
DEEN 『見上げてごらん夜の星を』
Deen - miagetegoran yoruno hoshiwo

a song by 坂本九(sakamoto, kyu) covered by Deen
a great slow song (something for a change XD)

power of words

2006-05-23T19:20:00.000-04:00

so ive finished my new layout
kinda dont like it but o well
too lazy to fix it anytime soon

power of words...
a single word or the way to say a sentence
can change every meaning of what you meant
the person u r talking to can take it differently
words r very strong
you must choose wat words to say
and becareful of wat comes out of ur mouth
because you might regret it later
it feels really bad
when someone tells you something with that misinterpreted tone
it makes u mad and angry
even though they didnt mean it that way
it hurts the inside... i need to try and learn
to say words the way i want to tell them
ive noticed this through talking to people
especially my family
i would like to take this example
and teach myself the way i talk to her
so she doesnt feel bad or angry
thats the last thing i want to do to her
i dont want to see her angry or feel bad
cuz i love her

song of the day:
10-feet - nil?

productive

2006-05-22T15:29:00.000-04:00

im going to be writing about yesterday cuz something actually happened
unlike the boring days of my life ><

Let's see now, yesterday (Sunday May 21st), I went to Flushing, NY to go to church. We planned on walking 13 miles from Manhattan to Flushing for church stuff but because the weather forecast sed it was going to rain, we postponed the walk. However, when i woke up, i noticed that it was sunshine... it was a perfect day to do the walk but because we postponed it already and there needs to b lots of planning to do before hand, it is impossible to do it on that day. so, all i did was at church was work my ass off to move lots of things. cuz we're going to be doing lots of constructions to build a new sanctuary, we had to move all the things that were in the rooms going to be demolished. that was very tiring but it was done. there were lots of stuff that brought bak memories from when i was a kid. so funny how they still kept all those stuff until now. they just threw some stuff away. lol. i asked one of the church people that i could get the "no parking any time" sign that was on there door. I was kinda joking around, but hey, they gave it to me. awesome, new sign for the bathroom door in payne next year. lol. After all that moving stuff, i went to help out for koteki, our church fife and drums corp marching band thingy. yea. i really did nothing but seeing how the faces change is strange. people grew up so much in the past year. lol. hah, that means im getting old... im almost 19 too... how time flies by. after all those practice and moving, i was beat but i had to save my energy to go watch the baseball game (the subway series versus the new york mets and the new york yankees). the game was awesome. bak to bak homeruns and a great seat. it was worth going. however, i dont like the mets nor the yankees (cuz im a braves fan), i didnt enjoy as much as all the other fans around me. I still miss the games at tech tho. the football game. hahaha. well i guess i need to wait a little while. see, this time, my day wasnt boring. im going to change my layout soon when i get really bored. i dont like the layouts they gave mee. that means i need to do everything one by one ><. soo much work but ill do it. I LOVE YOU SISI XD

song of the day:
HAWAIIAN6 - WORLD

*just in case you didnt kno, they're singing in english*

boredom strikes again...

2006-05-19T19:12:00.000-04:00

so, boredom strikes again...
nothing much to do today again
rain rain rain
i've noticed that since i came bak
only one day was sunshine
the rest was rain or cloudy
did i bring the bad weather bak here?
o well watevr
i want sunshine tho
so i can actually go outside
eh... i guess i need to wait then

song of the day:
ムラマサ☆ 『サクラ舞い散る夜は』
muramasa - sakura maichiru yoruwa

a japanese ska pop band

boredom kills me...

2006-05-18T18:07:00.000-04:00

Yea, so i was really bored
Cuz im on summer break and had nothing else to do
but sit in front of the computer
i made this due to the idea of Sisi
So, here i am, editing this blog
I don't kno how long this will last
or when ill stop writing anything
but i guess this will keep me busy for awhile
....
....
....
hopefully

i love sisi
i miss her

Song of the day:
レミオロメン『３月９日』
Remioromen - 3gatsu9ka